Would God forgive me for not going to church?

Look its not that I don't want to go its that I can't I'm an outcasts and people don't want to be seen in public with me.and nobody wants to hear me praising the Lord because of my dopey sounding voice.Would he let me get by by preaching about the Bible here on yahoo answers.Also I'm disapppointed in who I turned out to be.I wish I could go back in time and turn myself into an amazing woman.Would God let me get away with studying sorcery so that I can make my wildest dreams come true.I promise I don't want to hurt anyone.